FAQ

ARE YOU A WOMAN?

Yes

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WHY DON'T YOU POST ON FORUMS LIKE BDSMLR INSTEAD OF THIS SLOW-TO-DOWNLOAD WEBSITE?

I did but got tired of having my file sizes limited and content removed for being explicit or because someone else owned it. This site gives me full editorial control, the file sizes can be as large as I like (though this does make it slow) and being "offshore", it's not so easy for content owners to have my edits of their stuff taken down. I appreciate that micro-blogging sites are quick and easy but they don't allow me to post whatever I want. You can however increase speed significantly by clearing your browser history, cache and cookies regularly, at least weekly. This particularly improves the speed of Google Chrome. This site is slow, but it's worth it!

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DO YOU WANT TO CHAT/MEET UP?

No. I don't want a relationship of any kind with anyone online. This is due to paranoia. I've heard too many horror stories about people who hooked up online. I don't want my identity and my sexual preferences exposed to the world. My online presence has the primary objective of enabling me to express myself sexually in a way that's increasingly difficult in real life - I'm very horny indeed but I'm only sexually aroused by anesthetized women. It's kinda difficult finding women who will let you put them to sleep and fuck them whilst under anesthesia. When you do, it's hard to keep them when it becomes clear to them you don't want romance or even conversation. The psychologists among you will correctly conclude that I am a sociopath. So to alleviate sexual frustration, I express myself sexually through anesthesia fetish multimedia, inhaling nitrous and fapping a lot - I have a Feeldoe and a LELO Elise on constant recharge.

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DO YOU DRUGRAPE WOMEN IN REAL LIFE?

No, but I would if I wasn't paranoid about being caught. I have been called "The Lesbian Bill Cosby" before now, but I've always been up front with my encounters in advance about what I want to do.

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HOW OLD ARE YOU?

I don't like discussing this and frequently lie about my birth date, but if you saw me it would be obvious that I'm in my forties at the time this was written.

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WHERE ARE YOU FROM?

Another thing I constantly lie about. However I can tell you I was raised in Bradford PA and still live in New England.

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WHEN DID YOU GET INTO ANESTHESIA?

When I was five years old - at the dentist's. I had a tooth extraction under general anesthesia with a mask induction. At first they fed nitrous to sedate me before anesthetizing me with halothane. Before the halothane got turned on I had a serious nitrous trip - vivid hallucinations, the whole kaboodle. That's quite an experience for a little girl. No other experience got anywhere near it. The nearest I could get was seeing people being anesthetized, drugged and chloroformed in movies. 

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I quickly realized seeing men put under didn't do it for me - it had to be women. When sexual awakening came, I just naturally progressed from wanting to see women put to sleep to wanting to put them to sleep myself and then fuck them. No surprise then I wanted to get into medicine. Not smart enough to be a doctor, I trained to be a nurse, then theater nurse, then anesthesia tech/nurse. But I found I couldn't control myself. I'd be constantly sexually aroused all day. I'd disappear into the Jon for a fap every hour or so. I'd cop a crafty feel of my female patients when they were under. I was stealing anesthetics to use on myself at home. I knew I'd eventually get caught if I carried on. Btw what helped a little was discovering THE GASMAN'S SLEEPING GAS WEBSITE around 2000 - that was the first time I discovered it wasn't just me after all - other people had this fetish too. 

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I retrained as a Psychotherapist, and developed a sideline as a lesbian dominatrix to fund my "hobby". Somehow, much to my amazement, I've never been found out and live in constant fear of discovery, and depend on the evidence I have on my encounters to keep them silent - they are after all professional women with something to lose!

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DO YOU OWN YOUR OWN ANESTHESIA MACHINE?

Yes, but it's a vintage sixties model - cast off hospital surplus.

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WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR DRUGS FROM?

I buy oxygen legitimately as cylinder refills, as it's the cheapest way and you can do so without anyone asking too many questions. I make nitrous "Breaking Bad" style from bought in raw materials, then use an air compressor to put it in cylinders. Anesthetic agents I get from the dark web. They are usually older/vetinary ones, particularly isoflurane. It's very difficult to get sevoflurane and keep your anonymity - and it's too expensive anyway. I don't use injectables but do have syringes and cannulas for distilled water (for hydration) and glucose (if a patient goes hypo)

Please don't ask me to reveal sites/contacts/techniques - I can't risk you compromising my or my source's anonymity. Do your own research. On Fetlife you will find people more willing than I am to help you. 

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WHERE DO YOU PICK WOMEN UP FROM?

It's getting increasingly harder to do so as I get older, but when I do it's from local lesbian, fetish and Goth clubs. I'm a Goth myself so I fit right in. I target women with "try anything once" type personalities. I'm also a lesbian dominatrix and some of my clients are occasionally willing to be put to sleep (not occasionally enough though!) I only pick up professional women so they have something to lose themselves if they blew my cover.

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ANYTHING ELSE YOU'RE WILLING TO SHARE ABOUT YOURSELF?

I have severe insomnia - oh the irony! This is probably a lot to do with paranoia over on one hand wanting to express myself sexually and on the other wanting to keep my anonymity.

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CAN I REPRODUCE YOUR STUFF AND POST IT?

Well since I don't actually own any of the material on this site, it would be kinda hypocritical of me to say no! I only gather it and edit it to make it more plausible and suit my particular taste. So please just copy/download use whatever you want while it's still here!