Mine

As she lay strapped and sedated to the couch, she pleaded with me not to kill her.

"Silly girl!" I said. "I don't want to kill you! That's the last thing I want! And I don't want to hurt you or see you suffer in any way! I want to do the opposite! I want to keep you very much alive, free you from all pain and suffering, and look after you always from now on. Just relax, take some deep breaths...."

And that was the last thing she heard. And will ever hear. I was absolutely sincere though in everything I said. She is very much alive, is completely free of pain and suffering, and I am totally devoted to her, loving her and looking after her...

Of course I never said she would be CONSCIOUS. Her consciousness was no good to her anyway. She was making bad decisions, going with the wrong people, and generally making herself unhappy. Now look at her! Completely at peace, sexy and beautiful, with her every need met. Consciousness would just stop me loving her and looking after her properly.

She would never look so beautiful conscious - or be such a joy to fuck. Anesthetized girls are so much sexier. I simply don't understand why anyone would want their lover conscious. But as well as enjoying her, I take care of her every need - for oxygen, nutrients, cleanliness and physio. It's my duty and joy to look after her, and a privilege to be the one she absolutely depends on for everything - even life itself. Consciousness would get in the way - stop me giving her all the care I want to give her.

She's so beautiful. I often sit here for hours, adoring her, loving her. I have the peace of mind of knowing she's going to stay there - not moving unless I move her. She can never leave me. She is in every way totally mine.

So sleep on my lovely Sleepy-Girl! You are the girl I've always wanted - totally completely mine, and you always will be until the end of your days - free of all suffering, discomfort, confusion and trauma. Loved, looked after and enjoyed every day.